So this year, Mother’s Day just feels…raw. Not because I’m not a mom (I proudly bear that title). Not because I didn’t get breakfast in bed (I didn’t, but that’s another blog altogether). But because of a conversation I had yesterday with someone incredibly close to my heart, who would love to be “mom” to somebody, but for too many different reasons, isn’t.
She told me that last week in church, they had Baby Dedications. She unexpectedly found herself sobbing. Because she’s married to one of the sweetest guys I know, as soon as he saw her tears, he joined her. I warned her that Mother’s Day might be tricky, because churches aren’t always super-sensitive about the whole “I’d love to be a mom but I’m not” issue. She just said she’d bring extra tissues.
*sigh*
So today, I’m just feeling sad. I don’t understand why some who would love to be married and have children still find themselves single. I don’t understand why some whose arms long to cradle their own sweet-smelling babies find their bodies repeatedly betraying their hearts. All I know to do is cry, and pray. Because He knows our heartaches, and even though right now it feels really disconnected to today’s reality, one day those tears will be wiped dry.
Then I saw a new heaven and a new earth, for the first heaven and the first earth had passed away, and the sea was no more. And I saw the holy city, new Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God, prepared as a bride adorned for her husband. And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, "Behold, the dwelling place of God is with man. He will dwell with them, and they will be his people, and God himself will be with them as their God. He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away."
And he who was seated on the throne said, "Behold, I am making all things new. Also he said, "Write this down, for these words are trustworthy and true."
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